I don’t know how your month is going but OMG my June isn’t starting out so great. I was promoted to a full time position at work and honestly I feel like it just gave me more time to make mistakes. I’m really hard on myself when it comes to performing well on the job. This week has been BRUTAL! One of my supervisors told me that “the good thing about making mistakes is that we learn from them and then we don’t never make them again.” So this week has been a LEARNING EXPERIENCE.
One of my favorite quotes is from the movie and book Anne of Green Gables. Miss Stacy tells Anne that “Tomorrow is fresh, with no mistakes in it.” I’ve attempted to have that mindset every day. It is a struggle. I’m not only learning about this job. I’m learning about myself as well. When I first started, I was terrified of the physical aspect of it. Weighing in at 130, soaking wet, and standing proud at 5 ft. tall, I was extremely concerned that I wouldn’t be able to keep up with the physical labor. This is hard work guys! Lifting, stacking, tossing luggage that ways half as much as I do in a timed manner is no joke. I’m still not where I want to be as far as the speed, but I am stronger than I was 4 months ago. It’s an amazing feeling when we meet our deadline. I learned that I was physically stronger than I have ever been. Mentally, I’m also making gains as well. Not everything has been positive, as I’ve come to the realization that I don’t always work as well under pressure as I used to. I’ve also come to accept the fact that I’m not as confident as I once was. We’ll get to that later.
I’ve always had really amazing people skills, finding some way to connect with those around me and tie together a common denominator that lead to a positive experience. I honestly enjoy interacting with people. Not all of these interactions are idealistic, I can’t always solve everyone’s issue in a way they are happy with. For the most part, however, I enjoy this aspect of my job.
Personally I’ve learned that I am IMPATIENT. I want things and I want them now. I don’t mean physical things. I mean solutions to the challenges I’m facing in my personal life. I’ve been working extremely hard to get my finances back in order, meet some of the goals I’ve set for myself, overall get back to a level of happiness I once had. it’s not happening as fast as I want and that makes me sad, angry, and it turns that little voice recorder on in my head. The voice reminds me of how I am struggling to pay my bills on time and that I’ll never get caught up. It tells me what a failure I am to have bought a boat that I’m not currently living on, or even finding time to refit. It shouts at me about how I’m so broken that no one in their right mind would ever want to be in a real relationship. It point blank SUCKS. So I started looking for ways to counteract the voice and realize that tomorrow will be better because today I learned:
Dwelling on the negative simply contributes to it’s power. If I feed that voice more negativity. It will only produce negative thoughts.
Don’t be afraid to start over. It’s a chance to build something better this time.
You can’t have a better tomorrow if you are still thinking about yesterday. Sure you can go over the mistakes and decide how to better handle them, but don’t dwell. This only leads to negative thoughts which can become negative thinking patterns.
Be happy with what you have while working for what you want. News flash. Your situation, my situation isn’t going to miraculously better over night. I have to develop patience through the struggle. I have to learn to appreciate the “right now” over the “what could be”
So, take a deep breathe baby! It’s going to be ok because as Ms. Stacy said
“Tomorrow is fresh with no mistakes in it.”~Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery